Later Stages

10 Months

February 26, 2020

Cindy has been blessed with visitors this month. I haven't been good at taking pictures, but her grandkids, doctor, nurse, caregivers, and CNA's have visited her, too. I like to joke that Cindy is more popular than me with all the visitors she has. The reality is I'm popular, too, because her visitors become my visitors.

It's crazy to think that Cindy has been home living with us for nearly 10 months now. We have seen many changes with Cindy in these last 10 months. Cindy came home able to walk, talk, dance, and smile. Those things all are now mostly just a memory. I miss all those things about Cindy. I struggle to help my mom now because she is so weak and heavy for me to help her. She looks defeated sometimes when I try to help her, and, to be honest, when I can't help, it makes me feel defeated, too. We stay positive though and hold on to the positives that we have. We are thankful for Paul and Cindy's caregivers who always come help save our day!

We talk to Cindy as she listens. She isn't able to say much back to us, if anything. I know she just loves the presence of her loved ones. It makes my heart melt to see her light up when she first sees her family visitors. She lights up and it's probably the most joy I see from her. 

We keep going! All as I know is, Cindy has been a fighter throughout these hard times. She has taught me to never give up, even when times are hard!

Thank you for your love and support!


Just a side note. I had no idea when I wrote this post that Cindy would pass away 2 days later. Hug your loved ones tight!


February 14, 2020

I've been keeping a secret from you all here. I haven't been able to find the right words.

BLESSINGS & MIRACLES do happen! I have been reminded of this the last few months.

We brought Cindy (my mom) back home to live with us in May of last year. Never in a million years, did we expect a miracle to happen next.

Paul & I found out in November last year that we are expecting a baby! We didn't really believe it and it didn't feel for reals. Years of infertility can make you feel that way.

Every 3 years for the last 6 years I have been admitted to the hospital. The first hospital stay was for an abscess on my ovary and fallopian tube that left one of my fallopian tubes blocked. 3 years later, I was in the hospital for having a dissected artery & stroke. With getting older and just not having the best of luck health wise. . . I wasn't sure if I'd ever be able to get pregnant. I stayed positive and learned to have FAITH and a lot of PATIENCE.

I'm excited that now almost exactly 4 years later, after my stroke, I'll be in the hospital for something so SPECIAL and for something we have been waiting for, for years. We have been married for 11 years and we are FINALLY expecting a baby boy in July 2020.

Cindy will be having another GRANDSON. Her second. She doesn't understand or even realize, but I know she'd be so very thrilled. 

XO, Natalie 💋😍💕

Happy Valentine's Day, everyone! 
I pray, every day, that others going through something similar, can have their miracle, too!

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